Hugs to you! I hate that you find yourself here. I've been where you are, and I know your pain! The best thing I can say is that things will get better...I know it doesn't feel like it right now, but it will happen!
I can tell you that it took me a long time to realize that I couldn't do anything that might improve my marital situation as long as there was OW in the picture. I also know that I "knew" for a long time about OW even though I didn't admit it to myself or anyone else. When it became too obvious for me to deny any longer, I tried everything I could to "fix" things. And, I don't regret anything I did.
But, in the end, the only things that helped me were the things that got me out of the house; the things that I did just for Amy; the friends I forced myself to get to know better; working towards the goals I set for myself.
My marriage is nearly over, but, I now know that I deserve much better than my H has to offer...even more than he has offered for several years now. He's lost. I can't save him. He'll make his way, and maybe, he'll get what he's looking for. But, I know that I'll be okay!!!
Stick around. Post when you feel sad, lonely, angry, or even happy. You will continue to get support here as long as you post...I've been around for months and everyone still looks out for me!
I'll check back soon!
Love to you! Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
