I couldnt log on earlier. I drove to his work. He got in the car and I asked all the whys. I got no answers. He got a bit aggressive but calmed when I asked him what on earth have I done to him to treat me like this. Why didnt he leave me alone if he wasnt serious enough about this effort? I told him everything I have known about her and him, all the lies and asked him if he thought i was so naive? He said no and said he couldnt remember all the incidents I mentioned. He said they are friends and doesnt know how to handle this obsession of mine. I said we could go out together... No answer.
We talked about money, lawyer expenses, vacation time everything. I was emotional but didnt collapse or anything. He is back to the man he was a year ago. Cold, distant and cruel. And I was angry -not anymore- and am hurt. He doubted I was in a better state when he came back and although tempted I didnt tell him I was happy back then because although details would serve him good, that part of my life will not be used as revenge. But it was so strange to hear him say, I wasnt in a good place anyway...
