LD You are getting back to your strength. I think as those "floods" happen, in time, they won't come in as far and they'll recede faster and eventually you'll have built yourself up enough that they don't get in at all.
IF the time comes someday, you can put your walls down and let her in, but for now, it's good to build what you can to withstand what you must. Keep the focus on the kids and GAL and perhaps stop analyzing your pain so much. Seems a bit like taking the temperature too often, if you know what I mean.
Take care, stay strong, feel the goods more than the bads, focus on THOSE...
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