D papers not yet received from my W - maybe this week. Feeling a little down last couple of days. Seems like lately that my W and I are doing more and more things separately socially. I think I am totally at terms with the D, but sometimes, not with the acting divorced, before we are. But then again, as I think about it, why would she want to go out of her way to spend time with me - duh!
As much as I want to voice my feelings on the topic, I know it is a no-win situation. I thought about it a lot today. At times, I wish the D was final so I wouldn't have to see us living separately up close. Also, seeing her show so much love to the kids and her bffs, all the while, reminding me that there's no love for me there. OK, now, even I'm getting sick of this pity party.
