BobbiJo - I think you are correct about the grudge he is holding being a huge hurdle to ever restoring your marriage. However, as Wooglint would say..."he is broken".
Nearly 20 times to Disneyland in one year? I've ridden "It's a Small World" 4 times in my life and I can only imagine that you have been on that one quite a bit more. Terrifying.
