I am not Ali. I am not. I have the urge to go to his work and break everything in my way. WHY would a person come back to hurt me again, so much? Needless pain, WHY!!!! Why am I still so soft and not as I should be by now? How can anyone hear the woman he says he loves break down, be so torn and still stand for him and us and NOT do a single thing? WHY??????????????????
WHY dont the kids matter to him? How come he is so different than I thought he was? What did I do to deserve this? WHAT? What did I do to hurt him? What have I done 2 years now other than try and fight for us? Why go through this twice? Once was enough...
