Maybe I should be in piecing part 6?

[Hope4us]

I know I need to work on it. And I have been.

I know one of the things I need to work on is self esteem. Of the 4 women I've ever really liked or loved, all of them have cheated on me. Kind of makes me wonder if anyone is capable of being faithful or if it's something I do that contributes?

I know with my W that we were "together" too much. I look back sometimes and wonder if my first W cheating on me didn't somehow make me think that if my W and I were always together then she couldn't cheat on me. I can see how my W could have felt smothered, not because I forced us to do everything together, because I didn't, but because we worked in the same building and had all the same friends and we just naturally ended up doing everything together.

And when we relocated that was only made worse because we didn't know anyone in our new location so we were ALWAYS together. Maybe W's A was almost a quest for independence. From some of the comments she's made to me, I think that was a big part of it. I'd really love to talk to her about it, but until she's ready to talk about the reasons, I guess it'll have to wait.

Food for thought.