I don't trust him. I don't know if I'll ever trust him. I don't know why I seem to be dredging up the past and dwelling on it. It pisses me off sometimes what he did, what he said to me. It all hurts so damn badly and sometimes it pisses me off that I actually am married to a person who did that to me, who actually could say those hateful things to me and yet I sat there & tried to save my marriage. Yeah, I succeeded, but at what cost to myself & my self-worth & pride, etc.
Checking his cell phone, he had a call & has someone named "Faith" saved. No woman at work is named Faith. Tried to be sly about it & figure out who she is. Don't want to just bust out w/ "Who's Faith" b/c if it is totally innocent, that would be a crappy deal then.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
