What you are feeling is normal and natural. And you will go back and forth and up and down for a while and that is ok.
Your reaction was understandable. So was his. The day may come when he will apologize. Right now it won't mean much to you anyway because you are still so freshly hurt.
I also think Puppy is right about finding someone local that you can talk to. That is very important.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
