I just can't seem to accept this

[kelaaron]

Puppy--sorry I missed that. You are usually the first one to jump in with that advice.

[Regrets]

Thank you both. I don't know what I feel. I think I wanted him to say how sorry he was and he loved me more than ever but I doubt it will happen. Especially as I slapped him.

I can't believe a word he is saying. Such a sneak.

I feel horrible horrible horrible.

Thanks, I'll post later

[kelaaron]

What you are feeling is normal and natural. And you will go back and forth and up and down for a while and that is ok.

Your reaction was understandable. So was his. The day may come when he will apologize. Right now it won't mean much to you anyway because you are still so freshly hurt.

I also think Puppy is right about finding someone local that you can talk to. That is very important.

[Regrets]

Thanks Kel.

I'm disappointed in myself for slapping his big fat baldy face. Feel like this is why he didn't tell me LOL.

I'm like in a soothing voice, now I'm not going to be angry, you just get it off your chest you poor wee depressed soul. Oh for a sledge hammer.

I AM NOT A VICTIM

I WILL NOT CHASE AND MAKE FOOL OF MYSELF

I WILL PUT BACK MONEY I FOUND

I WILL SEE LAWYER

I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO THEIR LEVEL

I WILL ACCEPT WHATEVER HAPPENS TO ME

[Regrets]

He just came for stuff, I wouldn't let him in. Gave him his stuff. He said through the door that they were two people going through the same thing and were helping one another. I told him that perhaps talking to each others partners would have been better.


Said he was sorry. I said he needed to pay counsellor fee if he wasn't going and he said if you want me to go I'll go. I said Only go if you want to go and he said well i'm not.

I told him to go away and he shouted i'll text you.

so now we're back to i just didn't love you.

[Regrets]

Saying it's not like that. I said not like what. He doesn't know. What is the point really. When all you get is I don't know

[MT35]

Hey Regrets, they don't know what is going on. For my H he didn't know what was happening with him, and he still doesn't for sure. To some it can be a complete loss of the themselves they have always been.

[Regrets]

Do you think it really could be MLC? I think he is just playing me for a fool. Laughed when I suggested it the other day. I think they have panicked and can't stand the thought of people knowing so now saying they are not having an affair.

I need to skip LRT and Dark and get straight to move on and forget.

The thought of divorce and moving. My mind is racing.

I have pure hatred in my heart and it's horrible. I hate him so much right now. I've never hated like I am now

[Puppy Dog Tails]

Hey Regrets, they don't know what is going on. For my H he didn't know what was happening with him, and he still doesn't for sure. To some it can be a complete loss of the themselves they have always been.

Think of it like this:

It's like asking the 3 year old, "Why did you color on Mommy's good linen tablecloth with her Sharpie marker???!"

A: "I dunno."

Same thing. It's a waste of breath.

Puppy

[Puppy Dog Tails]

I need to skip LRT and Dark and get straight to move on and forget.

The thought of divorce and moving. My mind is racing.

I have pure hatred in my heart and it's horrible. I hate him so much right now. I've never hated like I am now

Which is precisely why you don't make any long-term decisions right now.