Have not posted in a while.....just read a quote that got me thinking:
"Recovered but not healed".
I spent the weekend with D8...yesterday was a nice warm sunny day (by our standards anyway). We were walking hand in hand in the old part of the city. A year ago, I would have noticed all the families together...now I no longer do....I just enjoy the sites...including the families....without that longing feeling. I guess that is recovering. The same is true when I drop off D8...no lingering...it is what it is....although yesterday, D8 absolutelly insisted that I get out of the car....need to ask her about that. During our walk, D8 said she had a dream that her mom's side of the family were all at my parent's home. So I sadi really...what was the occasion....she could not remember. What she could remember is that her dad and his side of the family were not there. Strange.....so she says I guess I am familysick. I asked what is that? It is like homesick except with the family. I have to admit that my eyes teared up. Thank God for sunglasses. I hugged her....she looked pretty strong....which surprised me. Finally on the drive home...we played a game...what is your favourite ______? Apparently both her mom and dad are her favourite person in the world. I told her that was a great answer and I hope we stay her favourite people for a long time. She then said that she does like one person just a tiny bit more than the other.
I am healing every day.....sometimes it is easy to forget about the kids and what they are going through.
