Welcome back JD...forget going back to day one. You have had a lot of 'stuff' to deal with and as co-founder, you can give yourself a dispensation
I have DB'd my little socks of over the last 3 months and going dark has been the single biggest thing in helping me. It hasn't got my W back, but I am happier now than I have been for the last 4 years (maybe longer if I am honest). I have rediscovered my own self, my fun side, the original me. He got lost somewhere down the line, but with the help of all you on here and the principles of DB, he is back, with avengeance
So thanks guys and gals, you are inspirational!
BTW, there's still free internet dance classes being organised on my thread