JD, I'm not a religious person, but I can totally understand what you are saying. I do sometimes think that there is a 'higher power' and that is what guides us. I guess that's pretty much the same.
However, that's great that you can relax so quickly after an awkward time. Thats shows that you are as happy as you can be given what is going on. That's great to hear.
One comment on the email, I wouldn't bother sending it to be honest, it's just repeating what you have already said and in the eyes of a WAS, it's pursuing. W KNOWS where you are, what she has to do and what you want. Leave it up to her to decide.
