First, no, this is not what God wants. Go hates divorce. But people have freewill. God doesn't force anyone to change their mind. Probably the best prayer that you can say is to pray that God's will be done. You already know his will is for your marriage to survive. Also pray that God comforts you during this time and gives you strength to handle whatever comes your way.
He won't give you more than you can handle as long as you are doing his will and staying faithful to him.
Pray for a change of heart in your H. Pray that he comes back to God. In doing so, he will come back to the M.
But in the end, pray that God's will be done.
Definitely do not let him get away with that pension. I'm glad to see you are staying on top of that. Part of that is rightfully yours.
I'm sorry to hear about your daughter being sick and hope she is doing better.
Pray that God give you what you need to keep going no matter what happens.
Sometimes I also pray that God create a situation that will cause a change of heart in my W.
Remember, the bible says to pray with faith as if it is already happening. If you are praying with doubt, how effective will it be?
Remember to also thank God for the blessings he has given you. Also ask for forgiveness of your own sins.
God loves you and your daughter and your husband. God wants your M fixed. He can talk to your H. But your H has to be willing to listen and respond. God isn't going to make him do that.
Pray for signs and wisdowm from God to show you each step of the way what to do.
I don't know if you go to church, but if you don't, find one to get involved at so you can worship God. If you do, good for you.
We are here for you. I know I have a tendecy to get to wrapped up in my own situation sometimes and can't see past it. Thats a struggle I am having to overcome.
This isn't easy on anyone. But at least we all have each other for support. Sometimes it would be nice if we all lived in the same city to hang out together. But that would probably make it the most divorced city in the world. lol.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...