I totally get you, WCW. There are many times when I'm glad to be on my own, and sometimes when H is here, I think, "OK, I'm ready for you to go now." Weird, huh? I know that I"m a lot better than I used to be, even prior to this whole mess, and I"m getting better still. I love myself and forgive myself; I don't think that H knows how to do either of those things yet. He still has a lot of healing to do before he can come back home, and then we need to do some healing together.

I was thinking today about a post from someone on my first thread--I think her screen name was 2much--and she kept telling me that I would be OK no matter what. She was right--I AM OK. I'm better than OK. Just as you say, I'm moving forward, and there's room for H if he wants to come along, but I'm not waiting around for him.

Anyhoo, thanks for your encouragement. Us oldtimers need to stick together! \:\) Be well.

amd