I could feel your pain while reading your post, and I am so sorry..
You will be alright. From how you described your H, he's not that great of a guy, anyway, so GOOD RIDDANCE, right?
Cheer up. It will get better!
Thank you! I am doing much better then I was even a month ago, so at least that is progress! I know that my life will go on, and time will heal the pain.
And you are right. I can and will do much better someday. Now is a time to be by myself for a while as I have rediscovered who I am (like many of us here do). I see the advantages of living on my own already!