as you seem to be looking for something that you may not find...I often think that too...even about H...
Sorry, I meant, sometimes we still envision the 'happily ever after', long strolls, great dinners, weekends away, getting along like a house on fire,....but in reality, I guess, that doesn't really happen....
I hope this was a bit clearer ...sorry.
Sounds like you're having an exciting time with all these men !
I'm sure when the right one comes along for you, you will know !
Enjoy yourself for now !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus