This is one of the horriblest feelings I have ever felt. I think we can all agree.
My depression started in Nov when I realised OW did exist . i took St Johns Wart for the next 3 months and then i became so exhausted with emotions that i went on to meds. i have been on them 4 weeks and will say although you are still said , you can feel a little happier, available and hopeful. i also rationalise better. I used to think H was with OW all the time when in fact I had no idea. With the meds I can keep things more real. Not obsessive anymore.
