H was gone all day, he went to the apt they were renting with OW and stayed there. He spent 2 hours on the phone with his mom - and guess what! my MIL doesn't want him to save his M! she never wanted me in the family, but I thought 24 years would make a difference... Apparently not. Then OW called and spoke with him for 30 min. Then he called me. And he said he's through with OW, it's over and done with . He also said that it felt like he was walking with a wooden stake driven through his heart for two years, and now it's gone!! And that he's nearly sure :o. He didn't say sure of what and I didn't ask. Didn't like the word "nearly" though. In the evening he came home and brought two dogs - our old doggy, the one I missed so much, and a brand new pup! He's 5 months old, it's OW's dog's puppy and I hate the fact that he's going to be a constant reminder of OW, but he's very cute and he kissed me about one million times and of course my heart was melted.
H is very quiet and shy and it's awkward to be around him, but he's much better than the day before. He seems to be ok with us sleeping together, and I'm hanging off the edge of the bed! I think I need time and space as well. OW TMed 5 times or so and he didn't seem happy about it but he answered nevertheless. I didn't say a word. She still has to pick up most of her stuff and I don't want to start asking questions right away. H went to "their" apt again, to walk with another dog (OW's dog, she didn't take her yet) and then he wanted to go see MIL. I'm very uncomfortable with that but I didn't make a comment and didn't show that I'm displeased.. After all I cannot control him, can I?
All and all, things are not bad. I worry a lot and I don't trust H, I'm still very alert to what he's doing and where he's going, but I try not to let it show. I go about minding my business the way I normally do. No, it is not the reunion I dreamt of, but somehow it feels more REAL. We shall see.
And - yes!!! I'm happy he ditched the SPIDER !!!
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
. He also said that it felt like he was walking with a wooden stake driven through his heart for two years, and now it's gone!! And that he's nearly sure :o. He didn't say sure of what and I didn't ask. Didn't like the word "nearly" though. In the evening he came home and brought two dogs - our old doggy, the one I missed so much, and a brand new pup! He's 5 months old, it's OW's dog's puppy and I hate the fact that he's going to be a constant reminder of OW, but he's very cute and he kissed me about one million times and of course my heart was melted. 
