Never say Never; it's worth the fight!

[ddstartingover]

(((Treese))) - You have had a week!! I hope your dad is doing better and that you get to spend a lot of time with him during his recovery. My father passed away 4 years ago. At the time, I thought my life could not get any worse----dealing with the loss of a parent is horrible. Now that I think back about it all and the timing, I'm pretty sure my H was starting his relationship with OW during that time. How low is that? I'm dealing with the illness and death of my father, so while I'm dealing with that he's looking at OW???

Anyway, today is H's birthday. It's the first in almost 30 years that we have not been together. Last year was strained, but we celebrated as a family. I have been on strict no contact since 2/24. I respond to his e-mails and texts about business (kids) and nothing else. I picked D15 up from his place today to take her shopping for prom dresses and walked in and wished him a happy birthday and gave him a hug. Boy, did it surprise him. I stayed upbeat all day, and haven't really cried today. When H called to say baseball practice was over, I told him that D15 and her friend were shopping at Target, and I would just leave them there and he could pick them up. He had a chance to invite me to dinner with them, but didn't. I didn't expect him to, and was only a little disappointed. I stayed with the girls until he got there --- but he didn't know I was still there.

I guess I'm getting used to it all, finally. Maybe I'm letting go. Maybe dropping the rope................hang in there....