I'm afraid if I give it up, we'll lose what closeness we do have. It's better than it was, but worse than it could be, if that makes sense. On the other hand, it all feels superficial to me.
Not sure if he would go elsewhere or not. As long as he doesn't, in his mind, he maintains the upperhand in this relationship. If he goes elsewhere then that makes him no better than me, and that is the prolly the last thing he wants.
We'll see. He finally called but only to ask me to pick up S13 for his soccer game, and oh, by the way, he needs socks, can you stop at walmart before the game? lmao.
Melissa
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
