Keep Moving Forward

[BeingMe]

So, the battle starts on March 19 when I go see the oncologist. This particular cancer centre is a research centre and they have asked if I would like to be put on any trials if they are in the process of doing so. I will think on that, but I will probably say yes. If it doesn't work for me, maybe it will give good info for further research and end up helping others. Won't think too much on it though, 'cause they may not be in the process of doing research for this particular cancer.

Okay, here's a question (for me really). Do prayers work? Do they get answered? I am starting to really believe they do. I mean, I did before, but in a kind of distant way and thought for other people, not me. As some of you may know, my sister and her daughter have been somewhat distant for a few years (my sister for most of my life and my niece for the past few years since she lived with us then abruptly left ... long story). It has been on my heart that this be resolved in some way. They were going to visit a couple of months ago, but for some reason did not. (My niece lives in Du Pont, WA, and my other niece lives in Calgary, Canada, and I live in between and slightly off to the west so it's not a big detour.) Throughout my life, my sister has rarely visited me, while I have tramped a pathway through her house, even if she lived far away which was the case many times. Anyway, to cut a long story short ... suddenly a week ago, my niece calls and announces they are visiting. Out of the blue. Neither of them have even been communicating with me much via email or telephone (not even morse code or smoke signals ... haha), so it was a huge surprise. So, they've come and gone and it was wonderful. We spent time chatting until 3, 4 even 5 a.m. like we used to. I am not going to fool myself that this will be a trend, but this once was a gift, and all I can think is that my prayers were answered because it was so unusual and unexpected.

I have prayed to HF that He knows the desires of my heart. His will be done, but I will fight for life in case that is His will. Thank you so much for all your prayers. Knowing that others care enough to actually pray for me, is so comforting and makes the battle easier to bare. It gives me greater courage. I am so lucky, truly. You know, even my neurologist said that he would pray for me during the operation. I am still stunned by that. I have never had a doctor say that to me.

A quote by Mahatma Gandhi, "In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in a clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness. Our life is a long and arduous quest after Truth." This quote resonates with me, in that, I feel we all want the truth, whether spiritually, or within our marriages.