Silver, I guess it sort of was an emotional response, but, I have been doing so well, and had really started to move past things emotionally, and felt like my life was filling up with good - when she started acting like this all of a sudden - I was NOT happy and overjoyed that she might come back. I was angry at first - that she would treat me so badly for so long, and then I was like "Ugh, man, this will suck, trying to rebuild trust, going to counseling". A lame response considering that she hadn't even given any positive signs really.
Also, I have had a bad habit in the past of reading positive signs into things, and I hate that, and refuse to allow myself to do it anymore. I do NOT EVER temperature take, but I would take a smile and ride that for two weeks as a sure sign things were better. Now, I'm past all that crap, and I just want to get on with life.
