Greetings alamogirl, jersting, KerryK, and the rest...if any of you are still around.
It's been almost a year since I last posted to this thread, about two-and-a-half years since the separation, and just about a year since the divorce. However, assets are still being split up so the pain goes on. I am so desperate to just be through with it all I can barely stand it. When this all started I had no inkling how long the torture would last.
I poke around the boards every now and again, but not much. So much despair and sadness in so many cases (and raw anger in the few in which the other emotions are absent) that I've found it hard to spend much time here (others have reported similar feelings so I suspect this may be fairly common).
At this point I've crawled so far into myself I may never resurface. Between the financial problems resulting from the legally sanctioned theft the courts call a "settlement", a bad economy, and my own view of life, I've stopped doing just about everything (save necessities like showering, doing laundry, and grocery shopping) and thrown myself into my work. Keeping myself that busy doesn't allow me much time to think about what's become of my life.
I don't know who it was, but someone once said, "Laugh, and the world laughs with you. Cry, and you cry alone." No truer words were ever spoken. Long before I holed up, friends and acquaintances just stopped initiating any contact. With a two-year nearly unending stream of bad news, I can't say as I blame them. They didn't want to hear it and I didn't want to talk about it.
But when that's pretty much your life, what else do you talk about? How many times can you have the "How are you doing...I'm hanging in there...Are you done with the divorce...No, it's still going" conversation before no one can take it anymore? Of course, I don't have the luxury of just avoiding hearing about it...I have to live it.
Well, enough complaining. Hope all is well with those I've come to know in these forums.
As for the fat lady, the last notes of the aria are fading and the tomatoes and rotten eggs have started to fly....
