Yes, I am sure. While it isn't exactly how I would want it to go, I really think that the longer I stay, the longer she will concentrate on how much she wants out.
She left for Vegas yesterday morning about 3 AM. I got up with her, warmed up her car, and helped her take her stuff to the car. She told me she would miss the kids and I told her they would be fine. I even got a hug (though it was distant and kind of forced, it was still nice) before she pulled away.
I have not called her the entire trip because I know that this is her time to get away for a bit. She hasn't seen her friend outside of a funeral home in a long time.
So, anyway, she called a couple of times, but immediately asked about the kids and hung up. It's almost like she can't wait to get off the phone with me. But I also know that she has a lot to do in a short time and probably needs the space, so I don't think much of it.
SO what I've been up to while she was gone... I have moved the kids playroom from the downstairs to an upstairs room, and turned the downstairs playroom into a study. I put the french doors back on so that she can actually close the doors if she is studying and can still see the kids in the family room. I also patched up some places on the walls where there were nail-holes from previous pictures that were there and painted over them with a fresh coat. I'm hoping tomorrow I can polish the hardwood floors and hang up some new pictures we have of the kids. She gets in tomorrow night at 10:15 so that gives me until 11:30 to try to finish up and clean up before she gets home. She knows nothing about it, so this will all be a suprise. We've been living in gloom too long and no matter what the future holds for me, I can't see having my kids live in it. The house is not dirty or in shambles (I know it sounds like that from what I've been saying), but it almost always seems as if we're just living here temporarily. Since everything has been up in the air for the past three years, I didn't focus on anything long term, so I figured as a mega-180 I'd devote as much time as I could with her out of the house to changing it from a house into a home. Even if I leave, I'd be more comfortable knowing that I left it in that condition.
