Well, never thought I would get here..... Feeling detached. She does not talk to me any more. That makes it easier to not care what she is doing. Have not said more than 2 words to each other since my last post.
Feeling good which is showing at work. It is really starting to show with my interactions with my customers. Starting to change a lot about me.
She text me today, twice. I answered her the first time and the second just ignored her. For now on if she needs to ask me anything she will have to do it in person.
Yesterday I made some personal purchases. New kind of deodorant, body wash, cologne and aftershave. The stuff I always wanted to use. Not what she would buy. Small stuff but it feels good. Today I bought a couple of new shirts, jackets, underwear and socks. Starting to look and smell better than ever. Which makes me feel better. I am actually smiling thinking of MY future. Cause I know I can do it with out her which is looking like it bugs her. HA HA
I honestly do not think it will ever happen. (getting back together) Funny if she asked right now I would definitely say NO. After what she has put me through she will have to jump through hoops to have a micro chance. She is acting like I have never seen before. My opinion is MLC. But who knows. If you sit back and actually look at all this from a 3rd point of view it kind of funny. She is always mad, stressed, tired etc... and I am not any of those right now. I have not completely GAL. But I am working on it. I am doing WAY better.
I will always love her. But I am not sure if I can be IN LOVE WITH HER again.
Me 41 W 44 Together 7 years Married 6 Bomb Dec 2 08
