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[Jayce]

Hey, LG. I finally read all your posts from both threads. You really don't want a pill for depression and to shut your libido down. Cry when you have to (I grew up being told not to cry & had a hard time letting go when I needed to - eventually had an ulcer ). If you don't let it out it'll erupt when you least expect it, and simultaneous meltdowns are way too sad.

I was on Lexapro for about 3 yrs during and after my daughter's illness. Would have been a way worse mess than I was if I hadn't taken it. BUT-the @#$%^&* stuff makes it difficult to orgasm. Just what I needed . Several anti depressants are fine with having a sex life. Others kill libido. So I had some libido, but not much release and it frustrated my H in his attempts to satisfy me. I quit the stuff as soon as I felt OK enough to do it. Meanwhile, H's BP meds were having effects on his libido that weren't noticeable the first couple yrs he was on them. (Beta blockers suck). That's when the LD started sliding into noD. I just didn't realize it right away since we usually weren't ML often anyway. Only libido friendly drugs from now on.

If you do ever go on one of these meds, bug your doctor about which one & what the side effects are.

Your loneliness & being alone mirror some of mine. I'm an only child & loved having kids. My own set of playmates, and their pals coming in & out, & on the phone. House way too quiet now that they're on their own & H works nites. Have a dog. Have friends, some still working, lots out of town. House way too quiet. Lots of interests, hobbies, but not fun to do by myself. Not good at getting motivated.

A ways back, you mentioned dreaming about being naked with another man. I think erotic dreams are common when we don't have sex often. If I hadn't had sex in 3 weeks or so, I used to dream about penises. Hard ones. Never saw the guys attached to them, just saw them floating in and out of the dream. :o. After awhile I started telling my H we needed to ML love more often cuz I had "the penis dream" again. Not sure what he thought about that. Sometimes I got lucky, sometimes not.

You mentioned attractive body parts: I like the concept of "your magic". Sounds exciting, almost exotic. Definitely sexy. Our female dog had bladder infection, wrecked the housebreaking. Told girlfriend who said her dog, female, gets them after baths unless she's makes sure to dry her "hoo hah" real good. Told my H & he laughed about calling dog's vulva a hoo hah. A new funny word to use. Asked the dog how her hoo hah was every time she went outside. A few days later I said I was going to take a hot bath and warm up my hoo hah. He burst out laughing and said it was the most unsexy thing he'd ever heard. Which made me laugh too. If ya can't be sexy, ya might as well be funny Good we still have a sense of humor.

Have a good weekend. Do sometning fun.
Jayce