Devestated

[SoCo]

I went over to work on finishing getting the house ready to sell today. Still had lots of stuff in it. We are to the point where we NEED to get it sold asap. All of our stuff and the memories there just tear me up. I did really well for a while cleaning and bagging up stuff that we need, then I just had a breakdown. I sat down and just sobbed. It's the memories of my kid's rooms, being babies, the cute pics we painted on the wall, etc. It's the high hopes that I had when we bought that house. Everything was so optimistic and hopeful. Now it has all come crashing down. H is avoiding the task of getting everything out of the house, so the responsibility has fallen to me. We can't just let it sit there and get foreclosed. I swear that's what he would do if it were left up to him.

Last night he did show up to son's ball practice. He then informed me that he was taking my daughter, 3, to the pond to feed the ducks during practice. I told him that he might breed resentment on my son's part by doing that, but he didn't seem to think so. My daughter told my mom today about how they got ice cream and fed the ducks. She then told her that dad talked to a girl there that she didn't know.

So, now I'm wondering if he arranged to meet somebody there and that's why he was so dead set on taking her. I really hope not, because we had the talk about 1. Not dating while we are still married and 2. Not introducing the kids to anyone even after we do date other people. I hope that he did not at the first opportunity alone with my d have her around another woman. There is no way to know. H would lie about it if I asked him. It could have just been someone he talked to. I don't know, the whole thing sounds fishy to me. I'm 99% sure he's involved with someone else. If that's the case then so be it, but I don't want my kids seeing their dad with another woman while we are still married. Uggggg
Why can't he use common decency like I have been trying SO hard to use?