I stopped and paused, then I said that maybe I was the one who was delusional, that I had it all wrong. That's when the IC spoke up and said, "No, no, you are not the one who's delusional here."
I can say that really appreciated the vote of confidence. Because I have to wonder sometimes.
I have those feelings too sometimes. I think our WAS sometimes (at least in our cases) like to view us as the bad guy or the crazy guy and they have no choice but to end the marriage. Their script or whatever. I don't think like in my case anyone believes this except H, OW, and maybe his best friend or 2. Don't play the role she wants you to play. Try not to discuss stuff with her in person. Send brief, professional type emails with no personal feelings. Don't let her push your buttons. I know this is very difficult believe me.
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I really need to get this D behind me now. If that has now become a fait accompli then there is no sense in putting it off any longer and thereby further delaying my healing and the rest of my life. Out of fear for my S's I have allowed myself to become stuck in limbo, abrogating my stated policy to "Keep Moving Forward."
I can understand you wanting to get this over with and over all this junk. I feel that way too. But I do think that I'm still healing and growing even through this process. But I know it will be good to have it over with.
