Today W was a bit more talkative. She text-messaged me wanting me to bring D(1) some diapers. I took time at lunch to run 20 by, and she sort of acted like she was disappointed I didn't bring more. I told her I'd bring more when she needed them.

This morning when I saw D(1) she spoke with me for a bit, and I asked her if it'd be fine to have a chat via phone to discuss D(1)'s week, and she seemed like that would be okay.

I'm trying to focus specifically on D(1), but there is that part of me that wants to reach out to W and work on the M... but I know that would be counter-productive and it probably sends a mixed message when I'm reaching out the olive branch with one hand and whacking her with a stick with the other.

With OM still in the picture it is a moot point, and I've avoided discussing the A with her any longer. I'm a fairly long-term person so I understand that will work itself out one way or the other. I just hate the fact we are going to blow thousands of dollars before she wakes up and decides maybe it wasn't such a good idea.

So my focus is to relentlessly and methodically pursue custody of D(1). I'm going to focus on my children's best interests, and I'm going to work to better the situation for all of us with or without W.

I just hate the fact that W has taken us down this path... but I'm more resigned than angry.

"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."