Lucky, it does sound like you are in a depression, for sure. Due to this, its really difficult for you to be able to process any advice, so instead here's some ((((((((((hugs))))))))).
Just get through today and this weekend, and by next week if you don't feel better then you'd better make that dr. appointment to ask for SOMETHING....not necessarily the anti-d's but we'll see next week how you are feeling.
When will you know if you get the job?
Do you have any sisters, or could your mom come and stay with you for a few days, both to give you some company and also so you could take a few shopping trips alone?? You need to sit with a coffee in a bookstore and let your mind wander around all those ideas, all by yourself, for several hours. How can we help you make this happen?
