Just keep swimming...PH #5

[pearlharbr]

I still don't know JD. I don't know if I love him anymore. I don't know if the feelings are gone or just buried so far underneath the hurt. Either way I'm just empty inside when it comes to xBF.

And I sort of feel like I need to figure this out before doing anything. Why bother giving him any hope if there isn't any?

You are right about getting rid of OW first. I will not accept any contact between xBF and OW. Period. That's the point of Gucci's suggested email. xBF needs to get rid of her permanently on his own before I would even consider working on our R.

Tawnya and I were talking about something earlier. Seems like the women we hang out with here are not as inclined to take the WAS back as the men are. Interesting.

And here's an issue I haven't seen anyone discuss (granted I haven't gone over to Piecing at all): how do you get over them being with someone else physically? The only way I can see myself getting past it is getting even. Not mature at all, but it's like I feel like he's gone out and had his fun, tried someone else on for size, so I should get to do the same before knowing if I really want to recommit to him. Now I know it's not right which makes me think that I really am done with him.