Walk Away German Wife (WAGW)

[PortlandDad]

Thanks for the perspective. Life with me was no picnic, and that's a fact. I'm not a character that a person can have much sympathy for considering how I treated my W for many years. You are right that fixing this is not going to be quick or easy.

She has definitely put up with a lot and sacrificed a lot in her life for me and our family, both of which I am very grateful to her for doing. She has been a pillar of strength for our kids, and a powerful, controlling force in my life.

BUT... despite all the positives that I say about her, it does not in any way diminish the feeling of betrayal and pain that I feel that she had an A on me. These feelings are mine alone, and the pain that it causes is also mine. I will bear what I have to bear in the hope that it makes me a stronger, better person when it is all said and done.

She is still having her A with the OM, all the while lying to me, and her mom and dad, and trying her best to covering it up. She is living her complete fantasy life and spending the money that I foolishly gave her. When she started running out of money, she sold our expedition for a pittance so she could buy more stuff.

I am definitely in this for the long-haul. I do keep things cordial and upbeat when I do talk to her, but those calls are few and far-between. In fact, since she left earlier this week, I have only talked to her once (and that was to confront her about the PA she had waaaaay back in the early days of our marriage). I know what I need to do; unfortunately the future of our M is at the whim of a emotional teenager who is currently in the throes of a major crush with the OM.