This is my first post in this section as I find myself in the due process of the "Bid D" with my WAW. I'll try and start my own thread tomorrow, but your title caught my attention.
Hang in there. I allowed my STBX take my 2 boys 10 & 12 for the weekend since she hadn't seen them for a few weeks pending a order of protection against her. That hearing was when I learned she filed for D as I was served at the stand, how embaressing. That was exactly one month ago to the day. I have not seen my boys, only talked with them 2 times on the phone for all of 5 minutes, don't know where they are and know now that they are probably having their heads pumped full of her jargan and like you, I now work to pay my attorney and nothing more.
Didn't even get to see my S12 on his birthday.
So, it CAN BE worse. use and cherish what you have.
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Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11