I know you love him, but you are also looking at this situation through rose colored glasses. You think he is your whole life and you can't possibly live without this man in your life.
You are afraid that if you turn him down he will think you don't love him and you will lose him.
You seem to forget that you are the one in control here, not him.
He is afraid of losing you, do you understand that.
So, Kissak, what is it that you really want?
Are you really prepared for him to come home? Or are you living in the fantasy of a happy ever after that you think you will have once his clothes are unpacked.
Piecing is really really hard, and if he comes hime for the wrong reasons then he will walk out of that front door again.
Kissak, again I am going to ask you, what is it you really want from this Man?
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
