Bagheera - Thanks for the words of encouragement. That's what I should have been doing with her. That's why I'm so mad at myself. She has been doing better and then I went and pushed her instead of praising her.
... I'm glad to see you back here man. You are that voice of reason that I think really helps us around here. Especially us guys.
Ali - I know that she is feeling that she is trying so hard and I am still unhappy. She could be trying harder though... sexy clothes or reading? nada. But she is trying. I think I've said before that we have ML more in the last 9 months than the last 9 years. At least 6 of those times were very good. So she is trying.
I know I hurt her yesterday with the things that I said. I hate that I did this. Ali I want her to see that what I want is for us to find a way to love each other that feels real and true. I don't want to pressure her or make her feel broken. I have told her that there is nothing wrong with her, that we have just lost our connection to each other. Let's find a way back into each other's arms.
DQ - "His feelings ARE that he doesn't think he wants to be married to her forever IF they cannot together find their passion for each other." This is exactly right. I don't know how to let my honesty get through to her. I have tried so many different ways to tell her. Maybe it just isn't clear to her what it is I am trying to say.
