But, in a way, I kind of understand what you mean about men annoying you...as you seem to be looking for something that you may not find...I often think that too...even about H...
I think I still believe in happily ever after like in fairytales, and well...that is not real is it....
Oh well, life goes on, have fun tomorrow !!!
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
...as you seem to be looking for something that you may not find...I often think that too...even about H...
I did not quite get this - please explain.
I had quite a nice week-end. I went to the jazz concert with my GF since "my sailor" did not contact me anymore. It was not really jazz but Cuban music with supposedly jazz influence. Unfortunately, the Cuban music on Monday was so much better that I did not enjoy this concert as much as if I had heard it before the other one.
Yesterday I did meet with the other sailor who is quite a bit older. He is quite nice looking and was well dressed. Initially he said that he would like to get to know me on a friendship basis, but when we actually met he said after about 15 minutes that he also wants to get close to a woman and not just go for afternoon teas!!! He even suggested that next time we meet at MY place!!! I told him straight away NO. We parted saying that we would stay in e-mail contact. Although he said he likes to go to comedy shows I did not find him a funny guy. - Oh well, I just cannot imagine getting close to some strange guy so quickly.
Afterwards I met my GF and we went for a coffee in the sun (behind glass since it is cold again). As it was late in the afternoon we chatted for a while and decided to have dinner together. After finding only full restaurants we finally got to a small Italian restaurant where we were given a table for a limited time and had a super pizza.
Today I thought I would meet yet another guy but the weather got bad again and he mailed me that he got the flu. A FF phoned me and I met her and my GF to go for a walk. Afterwards we went for a coffee and chatted for ages. We all enjoyed it.
H wrote again saying that I am so unfair to want the money from the proceeds of the property. That he has to live somewhere as well and he would be grateful if I reconsidered! He is still trying to manipulate me and make me feel bad about it. - I did not answer.
I would have liked to tell him that he is to blame himself and that he should not have thrown out the money, but I told him often enough that I will not finance him and his OW.
as you seem to be looking for something that you may not find...I often think that too...even about H...
Sorry, I meant, sometimes we still envision the 'happily ever after', long strolls, great dinners, weekends away, getting along like a house on fire,....but in reality, I guess, that doesn't really happen....
I hope this was a bit clearer ...sorry.
Sounds like you're having an exciting time with all these men !
I'm sure when the right one comes along for you, you will know !
Enjoy yourself for now !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Thanks for the explanation. Yes, I think just like you, "happily ever after" but I also guess that will not happen.
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Sounds like you're having an exciting time with all these men !
Actually, it is quite exciting. Today my FF said that I should stop wanting to get to know somebody by all means. I should let is just happen. - I don't really want to get to know anybody just to have somebody and was thinking of stopping. But I just saw a good advert and will respond. I find it quite fun to write to a stranger and then meet him, even if it isn't "Prince Charming".
Thanks for your compliment - I am glad that you enjoy reading my "stories". - I thought of giving up looking for "Mr Right" but somehow it is addictive! I keep thinking that maybe the next guy I get to know will be the "right" one.
The "older sailor" wrote to me today that I am a nice person but he thinks that we are not compatible. I am glad he wrote first.
H finally told me in which country he is but wrote that he still does not want me to know his exact whereabouts. That he will stay there for a while and then might try another country. I wrote to him that I care about him but that I don't care where he is and what he does.
The weather today was like in April but very cold: every five minutes something else. Tomorrow it is supposed to rain or snow all day.
I should do so many things in the house but don't feel like it. I feel restless and a bit bored but it is my own fault since I don't want to commit to anything at the moment. Hopefully, spring will come back soon and I can join some friends for long walks.
Good that you enjoy going to Ikea. I am glad I have to go shopping mostly for food since I don't like to go to crowded places. Apart from clothes, shoes and food I don't really need anything else.
The morning was sunny and I enjoyed my sunny bedroom, but then it got overcast and started to rain.
One of the guys I was in e-mail contact with sent me his phone number. So I called him and we chatted for a while and had quite a laugh. He wanted to know how old one has to be to be able to enjoy a pop concert with me. He said that one actually does not ask a woman how old she is. I said no, and that he will see how old I am when we meet. He also wanted to know where I live because he worked in the area. I told him that I don't want to disclose it yet and he understood it. He seems to be quite a nice guy. We agreed to go for a walk next Friday when the weather should be nice and warmer.
Sometimes I watch medical programmes on TV and recently I saw a good one. I just intended to buy some weights for strengthening my arm muscles when they shoed that you can fill different sizes of plastic bottles and use them as weights! I often use empty bottles to collect water from the kettle for watering plants but I never had the idea to use them as weights. The programme also said that writing a diary releases the stress and is good for you.
Well, my neighbour needed stuff from Ikea as she has just moved in....I too seem to have more trouble lately with going to crowded places...but it helps to go with someone !
I am amazed at the ease at which you seem to be having with this dating stuff...I so very much hope that one day, I will be able to date the way you are !
I do think you are so brave, calling these men and arranging to meet !!!! WOW !
Lots of love and have a good day, I'm off to iron in a bit ! xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Well, dating is not as easy as it might look to you. I get quite nervous when I meet the guys. The funny thing I noticed is that I can write to them with a greater sense of humour than speak to them when I meet them. Last time I noticed that suddenly I didn't know what to talk about anymore and there was silence for a minute or so. - As I said before, some of the guys are funnier when they write.
I got an angry e-mail from H again because I told him that somebody else needs some personal info from him to be able to get something done for him. I just ignored H's outburst.
Oh well, on Monday I noticed that for the first time since H left he WAS NOT my first thought anymore when I woke up! Instead I thought of what I should tell one guy who I did not want to see again. - I thought that maybe I should have tried to date before in order to get H out of my mine, but it would not have been fair towards the guys since I was not ready (maybe I am still not???) to go out with somebody.
The guy who I thought got cold feet because he cancelled the "date" wrote to me again asking if we could meet next Friday.
I just wondered if I should continue to write about my "adventures" since it has not much to do with this forum. I noticed that other posters don't write too much about dating but just write when they met somebody nice.
Cinders, I know you are interested in it. And what does anybody else think?
It is beautiful but still very cold outside and I would like to go for a walk. I don't like it very much though if it is cold AND windy. The sun is bursting through the window into the room I am in, and it is so comfortable to look at the landscape through the sheltering glass.
Enjoy yourself for now !