Hi naej, I just talked to H again. Asked him if he talked to the lawyer. He said no, she was busy, then he was busy etc etc
I asked him if he has decided what HE wants. He said he is willing to do that to ACCOMMODATE me and my work and my life since he can tell I want that. I told him I dont accept the word accommodate because he isnt doing me a favor taking his kids. He said he is not going to think of how to change his whole life if it is not legal. I suggested we do it anyway through the communication clause (when the gone parent sees the kids). I said if that cant work, I am open to give him 100% custody and leave communication open for me to see them everyday. He said he could talk about that also but he wants first to consult a C to verify it is better for the kids... He said something about how my decision shouldnt affect everybody's lives. I answered this time that that is something he should have figured out 16 months ago. He said we should not talk about the past. I told him I can talk about the past, I have nothing to be guilty for. He said HE FEELS THE SAME WAY TOO.
Then I told him I am VERY mad at him and he said he can hear it but doesn't know why. I didnt want to get into the discussion at that point because the kids were around and we are going to have it on sat anyway.
It will get ugly and it will because of me. Because I am furious. I cant control my thoughts or words. I NEED to calm down before I do anything I regret.
