(((DQ)))...thanks for your caring and prayers. I don't know if I'm one tough chick or one dumb chick sometimes, lol. I hope I'm finished with the eggshells. It's been one long, strange year. When I was involved with OM, I quit walking on eggshells because I flat out DID NOT CARE what H said or thought anymore. His personal attacks just seemed stupid then. I felt strong and confident. Then that R sort of dissolved but I still felt very confident. Wasn't sure what to actually DO...but I felt strong in myself. Then H got sick..and that just turned everything upside down, or maybe sideways because it was already upside down by then. And going thru that whole process and then REALLY separating from OM...got me back in old patterns I guess. The main difference from a year ago is that I think I am facing up to things now, and being honest and telling people finally. Right or wrong...OM made it "safe" to say things, to talk about my feelings, to open up. So that was a big turning point for me. Then it took a year to try and settle out THAT sitch, and get back to where I started, but with a new perspective.
(((2gthr))) Please don't apologize. And you don't have to read my history. I am in the niche of having mental instability in my spouse, whether it's from alcohol or exacerbated by it, who knows. But I probably don't even belong here. More than one person has said I have one of the most complicated sitches on the boards. Although, everyone has a purpose, even if it's just to serve as a warning to others. ha ha. Thanks for your moral support.
((( j ))) Well, sounds like you've lived in my house then. Al Anon is giving me so much support and guidance and is taking away a lot of the fog that rests here. I think my life is definitely going to change now, for the better...what that chapter reads as, I'm not sure yet. But it's not going to be the same as the last one!
((( dudess, smartcookie, and marriedcrazy ))) You know I love all you guys. :-) Thanks for being my friend during all this nuttiness, mine included. Breakaway...yeah...there are are a lot of meanings to that word...I actually stole it off a friend who used it on a different forum once...she laughed and said, you stole my quadruple-entendre handle??! Do I ride on down the road in a breakaway? Do I shoot and score on a breakaway? Do I go in the china cabinet and start breaking away? lol
I think I might take a bit of a breather from here for a few days and just do some GAL stuff, have fun...etc. The weather is going to be nice here, might as well start enjoying it.
Al Anon is giving me so much support and guidance and is taking away a lot of the fog that rests here. I think my life is definitely going to change now, for the better...what that chapter reads as, I'm not sure yet. But it's not going to be the same as the last one!