I hear ya man. IRS just sent me a notice about last years return, man, when it rains it pours....Some positive things on the horizon, hoping at least one pans out. funny thing DD, I haven't made church in 4 weeks due to some reason or another, but since I haven't walked into the "House", thing haven't gone to swimmingly. I will be there this Sunday. My attitude is still very good. At 20 days now, 2/3 of the way to my goal of 30. No contact, at all. zero nada, buried. She's been talking to my kids about me, I need to talk to your father about the camp and splitting weekends its in both our names, not anymore. I need to talk to your father about the taxes, too late....
After a relatively nice day yesterday, I just simiply came unglued last night after going to dinner without my boys for now nearly a month.
Today in fact marks an exact month that I haven't seen them. Suffice it to say, my L says that as painful as it may be, she is the one who took them, she is the one who is conealing them, and thus she is the one who need to arrange contact as agreed and that the longer this drags out like this, the better off it is for my case.
I was absolutley fine then I was brushing my teeth for bed and just fell apart and balled my head off until I finally fell asleep. Then as if that wasn't bad enough I had dream after dream waking me up of us in court and her all the sudden wanting to reconcille.
Just kind of journalizing this here, haven't really written in my journal in over a week and half, not much to update "no contact, no kids" for each day.
Hoping for a nice a weekend. Goin to a St. Patrick's parade on Saturday then spending a good portion of the night cooking to help out a friend who has something wrong with her arm and can't move it and is hosting her son's 21st birthday party on Sunday. That coupled with a football game on sunday after the party should be fun, although I haven't thrown a ball since about the weekend before I last saw my boys so my arm is probably going to be crap.
Eh well. As long as the weather holds out I'll just try and make the best of it.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
Oh, almost forgot, something told me to check my insurance claims yesterday and low and behold STBX was back at the doctor's again.
This time since it's on-line I was able to get all the details she can't block out on the paper versions. Seems someone has a bacterial infection in a not so nice place. Hehe, serves you right honey, nice OM you selected there.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
kEEP THE FAITH BUDDY. I hooked up with FaithFulH last night. Had a good talk. W blew my 21 days by contacting me about her insurance check to get her car fixed. I had to sign it because my name is on it. Why didn't she just sign my name to it? Anyway our bank won't cash it because it is a repair check and they need the completion form to cash it. so now she needs me to go to Bof A with her so she can cash it. My buddy who deals with insurance says they may not cash it either. I think she went there last night and they told her I had to be there because it is in both our names....Games, me think so...
Stay strong, breaking down cuz you miss your kids is normal. you have a strong tie to them, you're only human....
Thanks, i'm fine now, just tired. I can't tell you how nice it is to be out of the eviornment of that house and not be surrounded by everything that no longer exists and walls that have eyes and ears.
She must know that my L filed the response as I received a call yesterday from one of the backstabbers trying to "friend-up".
I will admit, I do have the one remaining wedding photo up at my 'new place', but it does not bother me, it still is the second happiest day of my life afterall.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
Just got a call from L. He apparently was successful in reaching STBX's L and my wonderful STBX apparently file for an emergency order of custody and I have a court date tomorrow for a matter I had no idea of!
So somebody at that god foresaken house must have signed for the notice that STBX knew I wouldn't receive it.
This is going to interesting.
AND, STBX's L says she has been unsuccessful in reaching her "client" and that she is most likely unemployed right now and does not have the finacnes to combat my response and that her L is about ready to cease representing her anyway!
Ohhh man, if I had not retained my L now as I did, this would have been a slam dunk for STBX to jsut clean me out.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11