Wanting it to be over and it being over are two different things though maybe? I'm not really sure why you are pushing for the D if you feel upset/sad/mad/hurt/not 100%/undecided... if it were just practical reasons (kids, money) you could come to arrangements over thst for now, as Bobbi is? As for the MC, I think you should be honest.. for the sake of the kids, at the moment, communication is very strained between the two of you (wouldnt you say?) so maybe you could be honest and take the chance to air your resentments and feelings and start to work on having a healthier R, for the sake of co-parenting with him!??
Would yuo really be able to hand over your kids 50% of the time, neverlone 100% ?? Shame about the laws there...
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread