I searched the Internet. It seems that only in my country the custody isnt joint automaticaly (unless there is a legal fight/objections). But I am sure if we decided so, it can be done. Maybe I will offer him 100% and see the kids when I can... That would serve him well... Anyway, I am not going to fight him to give him his kids. I have to get a grip and start moving back to where I was 6 months ago (mentally).
Ali, we still havent spoken honestly with each other I guess. I am dwelling on making an effort to do it on Sat but to be true, I am afraid that would cause another postponment. I think he is in NO WAY going to follow through with the D unless I push and he will use any bit of hesitation I may have still, to delay things.
What bothers me is I am STILL not 100% sure. I wonder, is anyone ever? Like deep inside or is there always a small amount of guilt and second thoughts lingering? Am I trying to feel 100% sure while that is never possible after 12 years and 2 kids together? NO idea. I just want this to be over.
That would serve him well...
