No more maybe this, maybe that...and what happened in the past, happened in the past...you knew then what you knew then, not what you know now. SOOOOOO do TODAY what you can today and live as you feel is better from now on, allowing for growth and emotion.
It is fine to go through, anger, denial, bitterness, sadness, and any other emotion, let them happen, and deal with them as they do happen.
Decided who YOU want to be, what YOU like about yourself and what YOUR goals are in life, and strive for that, then if your H is still interested, I am sure he will notice. But if he's not he won't ...and NEVER EVER do this to GET him to notice, because it will backfire on you !
Ok, so having said all that, ...be calm, be still, listen, and let go of your fears and expectations, just live by the moment for a bit.
Hope this helps a little...
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
