I am freshly into this myself. I was married 20 years and my husband decided to get out. He cried more than I ever seen him crying. It has been since Sept. and I am soooo loney for him. He is living with ow now. I have gone dark and I am not contacting him at all but I want to so bad. We are also divorced. Hang in there, there are people here who can give you great advice! and help you thru this.