I am sorry I have been so vacant these last few days. Been just so busy. I had to go out of town yesterday on business, for example. And just trying to keep up with everyone's sitch's has been a challenge, let alone updating my own.
Likewise this has forestalled my running down these leads for family counseling for my S's. The good news is that when STBXW started asking S8 whether he thought my idea was any good, S8 told her he would appreciate being able to talk to someone about these things, including other kids going through the same struggles. (Perhaps this means STBXW is getting her first whiff of the coffee, so to speak.)
I am also talking to S8's teacher about getting the school counselor involved. The teacher seems very willing to help out.
My visit with my IC was good. I had a lot of events to catch him up on: a lot has transpired since we last met in August. As usual, he let me do most of the talking, occasionally asking me leading questions to get me to think about things in another way.
I was telling him about all the crap STBXW has been putting me through, and how delusional she and her mother are for their relentless insistence that their version of reality is true. I stopped and paused, then I said that maybe I was the one who was delusional, that I had it all wrong. That's when the IC spoke up and said, "No, no, you are not the one who's delusional here."
I can say that really appreciated the vote of confidence. Because I have to wonder sometimes.
I really need to get this D behind me now. If that has now become a fait accompli then there is no sense in putting it off any longer and thereby further delaying my healing and the rest of my life. Out of fear for my S's I have allowed myself to become stuck in limbo, abrogating my stated policy to "Keep Moving Forward."
