Depression has set in.

[Beans]

I feel also my kids are a huge support. H told me not to be so sad in front of the kids, it is bring them down. I did talk to my daughter about this and she said yes, she doesn't like to see me sad, and she didn't want to tell me so she told dad. I reassured her to tell me how she feels. I couldn't promise her I would never be sad, but told her we need to be open with feelings. I hate that he's trying to control my emotions!
I can relate to trying to find your identity again. We have been together 22 years, married 18. I am finding this site is helping, thanks for the encouragement