That's good. For a second there it sounded like you needed a dose of humility. We're all only human after all.
Since you want to continue to save your M, then stick that mental picture in your head. Picture what your ultimate family would be like and hers. Visualize, then burn that image in. Keep your eyes on that prize and you won't find yourself being on the roller coaster as much.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.