I figured that since the D is almost final, what reason would I have that I could give H for stopping it? I can still stop the D. All I have to do is go in front of the judge next week and tell him that I don't want it or I could tell my L to stop it. But if I do that I think H will be furious at me.
I mean, sometimes he acts as though he doesn't want the D and has made the statement a time or two that "I" was that one who wanted the D, not him.
But I think he has accepted the fact that it is going to happen and seems to really have no problem with that. It is just me....I feel deep down that this is not the right thing to do. It makes me feel so empty when I think about the fact that the "ending" is here.
As far as the N/C now....H has been calling. I have kept it short and I always end the call. It is his day/night with D7. Anymore that is the only time I talk to him. He doen't call to really chit chat anymore. He is still playful when we have to see each other and still talks at that time but not so much calling now.
