you are NOT a failure in any way. You know how I feel about this. That I support you because I think it is the NECESSARY step at this point. You CANNOT continue to live wondering if he is going to pay the rent because this afternoon he said he would and tonight he said he wouldn't. You CANNOT continue to live with him telling you he is not with you any more and then getting upset that he was locked out of his own house. You are not living in a world that should be dictate by H's "mood of the minute" that is not good for you, your kids, your health. Right now, it is what you MUST do for you. I know it is not what you WANT to do but you have not failed and like SMW said, you are regrouping and are going to live to fight another day. We all love you and have laughed and cried with you and been happy for you and angry for you. You are a shining example of strength, determination in the face of the most horrific odds, and a truly wonderful, kind, and loving woman. I thank you for allowing me to share in your world my friend. ((((BG))))))
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
