My first step out of Newcomers

[Can it work]

Well that's me back to work this morning. It was good to get back in to my own bed last night. I'm beginning to wish I took the rest of the week off because I have so much to do at home still. I'm sure I'll live though. I'll hopefully achieve a good amount this evening.

My W dropped Wee Man off for about an hour yesterday when I got home. It was so amazing to see him. I bought him a new train set when I was away and it was hilarious as he kept following me around the house dragging the box so I'd set it up for him. When we did get it up and running he was amazed and seemed to thoroughly enjoy it.

My W was better than she has been yesterday. I showed her some of the clothes I'd bought Wee Man when I was away and she was saying how lovely it all was in a pretty much normal way. She also gave me some news on how her family were getting on. This was all done very pleasantly with a smile on her face throughout. It may be a positive sign but I'm not over fussed to be honest. It'll be what it'll be.

I'm not sure if my trip away really cleared my mind as far as my W goes. What it did achieve though is to help me appreciate Wee Man even more. Spending time with my niece and nephews showed me how much pleasure you can get from your children when they're a little older and they can interact more. I know he's not too far off that point and it's exciting me to be able to do more with him. Right now, I love having him but he's not the world's best conversationalist and can be hard work. I wouldn't change him for the world but I am now even more excited about the future even if it's not going to be with my W.

I am still lonely in the evenings and miss the comfort of having someone to talk to. That could be my biggest downfall I think. It's not so bad when Wee Man isn't staying because I can just go out and visit friends. It's normally the nights when he's staying and goes to bed that I struggle. None of my friends or family seem to want to come past when I have him because they want to leave me alone to enjoy my time with him. I've tried to explain to them that it's still ok for them to come past but they never do. It's at these times that I miss my W the most.

Kev